Friday, November 8, 2013

Is Thin Worth It?



Oh My.

Go read it now, and then come right back here:

Okay, so you've read it?

Now let's talk about it.

It's my story, sort of. I never got into the gum chewing thing to maintain my weight loss. But so much else rings true. Especially the part about needing to have total control and total focus in order to maintain my low weight. That's 100% been my experience.

Got a comment on the blog today:

"Hi! I'm really enjoying this project and I just bought the book yesterday. I've been vegan for 5 years and eating a low fat vegan diet for almost 2 years (McDougall, Engine 2) but I'm really excited to give these recipes a try. I've got about 10 lbs to lose and I'm curious, you mentioned early on that you had lost 3 lbs so far and I'm wondering if you've kept it off or even lost a bit more? I LOVE my plant-based diet and my family is thriving on it but I feel like i need to fine-tune it for my body. Even though I feel wonderful on a high-starch low fat vegan diet I still think I'm retaining more water than I like due to the grains so I think the Eat to Live recipes might be what my body wants. Thanks again for sharing your experiences - it's been really fun!"

My reply . . . as totally influenced by the fact that I read "the article" earlier today?

I haven't weighed myself in about a week (to tell you the truth, I'm scared to). I'm trying not to obsess after reading this article:

What is most important to me is that I am feeling great about most of what I am eating and the way that I am feeling. I am so far from being a perfect Nutritarian that using my weight as a basis of comparison of diets would be a huge mistake. Yes, the closer I follow this way of eating, the less I will weigh. I do not doubt that one bit. But can I follow this diet to a T all the time? Probably not. Am I thrilled that I eat a ton of Nutritarian food every day? Hell yes!

I hope that answers your question Sophie. :)"

I wonder what Dr. Fuhrman would think. I'm not a role model Nutritarian.

Whole Food Plant Based eating has not lead me to a place of "thinness." Truth be told, Weight Watchers was much more effective if thinness was all that I was after.

Along with thinness for me comes obsession. Obsession with the scale, obsession with food, an almost always grumbly stomach, going to bed every night really, really hungry, exercising 5-6 days per week. What else? I'm sure there's more. It's hard to remember.

One thing I do remember is this: I hated my body almost as much back when I was thin as I do now. Being thin did not make me love my body. Not one bit. I criticized myself as much, if not more, than I do now. Because when I was thin, I thought things on my body would be a lot better than the reality of it.

I'm not thin anymore.

I'm me.


Big boobed.

Fuller faced.

Plump middle.

Back fat.

Thicker legs.

It probably doesn't matter one bit to you. It drives me crazy.

So why stay on this plant based diet of ours if the result isn't perfection? I'm going to tell you why.

I never feel one ounce of guilt after eating a Whole Foods Plant Based meal. Not one tiny little regret. No reason to obsess about food all day long--I'm nourished and full. I feel wonderful and energetic and amazing. Proud because the way that I eat doesn't cause hurt to another living being, and hopefully over the long run won't be a drain on society. My skin is beautiful and my poops are healthy (as a past sufferer of IBS, this is NO small thing).

I would never give any of that up. Boobs or no boobs. That's why, no matter what the scale says or how my clothes fit, I will remain WFPB.

And you?

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